Friday, April 15, 2011

I, becoming a desert isle

 No, I cannot be who I am not.
I stand by what I already said: I need a friend.
Let me say it again -- this time, with tears! -- I NEED A FRIEND.
Find a friend in God?
But I am not all divine: only the soul in me is.
And part of me is human.
I am a soul within a human body.
Love Divine must be personified.
That Love is personified in Jesus, you say.
And I agree.
But why is He hiding Himself from me?
Treating me like an enemy?
Promising me without end?
And promises are still promises to this day -- I am not seeing the fulfillment.
God, I am lonely -- without friends, without You!
I am an isle.
And I am in the midst of an ocean of its deepest blue.
The loneliness in the human me is worsened by the loneliness I have in my soul.
An isle of desert, I am becoming!
Does anyone see how lonely I am?
Can anyone understand?
Words cannot comfort me -- but letting me speak out the depth of the loneliness of my entirety: body and soul!


Gio C. Tijano said...

The God-Human Jesus had a friend in John "whom [He] loves." I am human and not a God: do I have the more need for human friendship?

Saylor said...

Hi Geo: Nice blog, and it sounds like you are looking inward for meaning in your life - I applaud your journey. I look forward to reading more.

Gio C. Tijano said...

Thank you, Saylor!!! Your inner understanding to "my" work has given me encouragement to go on with this blog journey of life. Yes, please, I need to express my soul and this, to be read by all. :)